What Am I Doing?

I read blogs.

I love reading blogs.

I envy other bloggers and their body of work from the day to day to the fiction.

I wish I had a blog like that!

Well, why don’t I? The answer is pretty darn simple. I need to just write. Sit down and bang it out even if it’s something mundane because sometimes the profound is found in the mundane. I guess I live in fear like many do who write. It’s the “what if it’s not good enough?” fly in the ointment. I love to write meaningful, awe inspiring posts but they don’t always come to me and that’s when I find myself wondering why the prompt at Write On Edge, or Studio 31 Plus, or The Lightning and The Lightning Bug isn’t speaking to me? I need to step outside of the prompt and write for the sake of writing. I have enough stuff falling out of my brain on a daily basis I should be able to put something in a blog post even if its just “Meh!”

My nemesis is enthusiasm. I get crazy excited about making a commitment to something and within 48 hours that commitment has blown away like trash in the Wyoming wind. I want to type right here right now that I’m going to sit down every day and give this blog something to breath out into the internet, but the reality is the 48 hour syndrome, so I’ll say I’d sure like to write something every day and then not beat myself up for not putting something out there.

So be patient with me faithful readers (I’m afraid to look at my numbers 😀 ) I am trying to dig down to bedrock. If I’m honest with myself, I haven’t been doing this for very long (started in May 2011 Oct 2010 I had to go back and look!) and I can’t hold myself up to other bloggers even if they do approach massive numbers of posts by their first anniversary(which I missed ). My style is different as it should be. I want to be happy with what I write when I hit that publish button.

I’m here. I’m thinking and I’ll be writing.